Thank goodness it is Friday. As I sit here, with a broken heart, I am at a loss of what to say. Yesterday, Al had me served (at work of all the 'sweet' things) divorce papers. Two weeks ago he told me he was coming back home.

What is it about our life together that was so awful? Did we argue? Yes. But I stuck by him through so many things when he would of had no one. I planned romantic overnight stays at places for us. I planned family trips for us. I bought him nice things. I didn't do it in order to gain anything. It was done out of love.

Al always told me I showed him the best things in life, took him to the best places, bought him the best things. He said he had never loved anyone else and I made him want to be a better person. I really believed him. I thought our marriage was solid. That we could overcome anything together. So, why would he want to walk away? He said he hated his 'former' playboy lifestyle of going from woman to woman. It was lonely and he didn't want to live that way again. He wanted to have a baby and adopt Taylor. How do you go from that to walking out on us and refusing to talk about this? Why walk out on four years of yor life with someone and not even work it out? Doing this you will continue to drift from one relationship to another until finally you just get wore out and settle for less.

There were people sitting back waiting and hoping for our marriage to fail. I feel like Al just caved in and gave them what they were waiting for. I fought so hard to keep this from happening. Why isn't he fighting along with me?

Well, all I can say, is, it isn't over yet. Al can still come to his senses! Our marriage can still be saved.