throwing caution to the wind

Today I am going to talk a little about the man I call my Knight in Shining Armor. It reminds me of something straight from a fairy tale. There was me, sad, lonely depressed miserable. I felt unlovable. Like never again would someone love me or desire me. And I would never give someone the chance to hurt me again. Then out of the blue (to me but apparently others knew it was coming) someone asks me for my phone number. I give it to him then spend the rest of the night trying to figure out how to get out of what I had just done! But one friday night he comes over. He shows up with a single rose in his hand. The whole evening was incredible. All we did was talk. But I felt so comfortable. Then as we talked more and more I felt something I can't even describe. Then one night he kissed me! My GOD what a kisser! It was incredible. It was as if I could feel the armor I had been carrying around falling off. Now suddenly here is this wonderful man that wants me. Who is in love with me. ME! How lucky am I!!! He is handsome, thoughtful. My family likes him. My friends like him. But he makes me feel like I have never felt before. He makes me explore sides of me I didn't know existed. I can't get enough of him. every minute we are apart is misery. I love the way he smiles at me. It melts my heart. Isn't this what love should feel like? I feel like I have waited my whole life for him. I have decided instead of playing it safe and protecting my heart I will throw all caution to the wind and explore all this person has offered me and makes me feel. I feel like he has awakened the real me! I feel excited again. I feel loved and worthy of love. He did that for me.

Worth the risk

The dawning of a new day. Funny what can happen to a person in such a short amount of time. Just when you think the terrible pain you have been suffering with will never end, the constant torment will go on and on, suddenly someone steps into your life and you are transformed. You are smiling and laughing again. You are enjoying the days again. The depression seems like a thing of the past. when you thought your heart would be a block of ice forever it begins to melt when he smiles at you. You feel warm inside when he touches you. when you see his name pop up on your phone it brings a smile to your face and you can't answer it fast enough. It kind of reminds me of a bear in hibernation. Shut off from everything for months, not engaging in anything. Then one day he crawls out of his hole and there is a whole new world around him to explore. He begins to walk around and he notices the new smells, the beauty around him. I, too, am beginning to notice life around me again. Notice what I have been missing because I was 'hibernating', closed off from the things and people around me. But now! I can't get enough.

This person has become like a lifeline to me. It is scary in a sense. The fear of opening up and being crushed again. But then if you don't take the risk you can miss out on possibly the best person to have ever come into your life. He awakens things in you that you didn't realize were there. Don't you want to explore it? Savor it? Enjoy the smile in his eyes when he looks at you? The sexy wink he gives you. The warmth of his words? The soft touch of his lips? The goosebumps? why not take the risk? Allow him to help you heal from all the pain and replace it with the love you need. He has been there waiting for you for a long time. let him love you. Let him help you to let go. Explore all he has awakened in you and all he can show you.

Thank you Kevin for being so wonderful :)